*Thanksgiving & Grandma Mi*

In honor of my Grandmother, Marcella Kozloski Mihovilich, on what would have been close to her 100th birthday:

Thanksgiving Too

Her funeral priest spoke in general terms,

but we knew from experience that with two sticks of bread

Grandma made a fire of feast,

a little anise behind her ears,

dear roast held over obedient flame,

soup from the bones of leftover  husbands,

sugared hands that sweetened the meal,

poisoned her own blood,

snow pudding melting in waves of green foam

on the tongue, custard avalanche behind. 

Even small Arnold's slices at her breakfast table

morphed into something better than bread.

At Thanksgiving, perhaps, my mother won,

where my father, with his low drunk tolerance

for sentiment or hors d'oevres,

would rather have spit it out, destroying the evidence.

My mother and her own oven won a little those days.

It was a bird bigger than eagles in this world

that flew from our forks to paradise of stomachs,

then to the sewer's afterlife, and the journey

was olive sweet, cranberry bright, carnival shimmer

in the nut bowl's glory, crackers at rest.

And the bones rested after in a hot bath of boredom,

surrendering to noodles their last bit of light.

CAR  1/5/04

*Poem: "Thanksgiving"

Thanksgiving

Nibbling on crackled turkey skin for lunch,
delayed Thanksgiving roast on my own,
plenty of sage to make it right,
surprise of granny apple in the homemade stuffing,
of course I remember you, Ma,
and the smells, the good behavior, the heat
of the kitchen spilling into the open living room,
big olives pushed onto my fingers
imitating Buckingham guards,
pound of mushrooms shrinking to nothingness,
tiny pile of savory at plate's edge,
nuts we knew by a dirty name,
impossible to open, then not worth the trouble,
green olives settled for when the black ones were gone,
parade on TV featuring an occasional Long Island band,
though somewhere in New York was enough to satisfy,
balloons and early risers,
Betty White and Lorne Greene days,
sometimes cold, sometimes wet, and relatives dribbling in
to squeeze around the picnic table, our kitchen table,
sturdy and large and red and cheap,
crescent rolls left to burn, annual sacrifice,
yams from a can heated through before serving,
ours not a marshmallow family,
the pumpkin, the apple pies, the mincemeat tarts
apparently only you and I loved,
all covered, all pies with real cream, whipped
and sugared with a careful hand,
my mother's giant iron arms
handy for such a task.