Showing posts with label Florida. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Florida. Show all posts

Friday, April 25, 2025

**Poem: "Seeds"

 

Seeds

 

My in-laws lived in Ellenville, on Hillcrest Avenue,

mother-in-law a refugee from a Greenfield Park farm,

father-in-law straight outta Henry Street.

They met at a Young Zionists meeting in New York City,

and after he did his bit during the War (four years in Hawaii,

after Pearl Harbor, but who knew what might happen),

they moved with their young baby to a kibbutz in

pre-State Israel.

 

For a dozen years they lived their dream:

farmer, teacher, side by side with Ben Gurion,

two more babies for the communal nursery,

visiting day on Sundays, my ex the youngest.

He was a preemie, defective heart that could

only be patched in the U S of A.

 

He and his mother went back, two years away.

When it became clear they needed to work

to pay off the doctors, his father and sisters joined them

back to Ellenville, small house, step backwards.

 

He worked at a knife factory by day,

wrote letters to the New York Times at night,

tore them up in the morning.

She was secretary to a childhood friend,

now a millionaire TV antennas maker.

She was a Democrat, too afraid

to reveal their true leanings, even in the good ol’

U S of A, freedom here, in truth,

a mediocre commodity.

 

So it went for thirty years, huddled in the Catskills,

planning their escape when all was paid in full,

children settled into their own orbits.

This is where I tapped out when their youngest,

my ex, unhandsome and angry, could not

assert himself on even this planet.

 

I found out later, bodies and minds failing,

they instead transplanted south.

Maybe the warmth reminded them of the desert.

Maybe Florida’s palm trees echoed the bare

sandy fields of their old kibbutz.

 

They have since died, without one visit back,

without one more look at what has become of

what seeds were planted long ago.

Their children, happy in these States, perhaps think of

those kibbutz days as some Maurice Sendak fable.

Seeds have sprout, here and there, black vines twisted

around all their good intentions.

 

CAR  4/18/25

Tuesday, December 8, 2015

Something Old, Something New

In 2015, I assembled a couple of chapbooks with old poems, and sent them around to a couple of contests. Predictably, neither of them found a home. Collections I've published in the past have never been based around a theme, or even written at the same time. Poems in the past have come to me one by one, and the only discernible theme has been, "me, me, me."

I did try a couple of years ago to write poems around the theme of horses. As it turns out, I had a tenuous connection at best with these beautiful creatures, although growing up on Long Island, next to a corral and next door to my grandfather's barn, they were common as squirrels. Of course, that very estranged relationship could be what I was supposed to be writing about in the first place, and not just a bunch of portraits of, "Horses I Have Known."

So, I have four or five decent poems about horses, and Long Island, and childhood. I have other poems about childhood too, so my last attempt at putting together a manuscript from poems I've already written will be to combine childhood poems with horse poems. This could work. Again, they have been written over twenty or thirty years, so they will require major revision to hang together, in my opinion. So, that project is in the pile.

This year, I decided to write one poem a month with the starting off point of current events in my life. The weather seems to open most of them, but after warming up, I think I've come up with eleven (so far) decent poems. These, perhaps with a couple others that I wrote outside of this exercise, should make a decently cohesive chapbook. As I wrote them, I just typed them up and put them in a folder, so perhaps my memory of them is a bit rosier than is warranted. We'll see in January.

I began a rather experimental project too, inspired by the works of Katrinka Moore, Anne Gorrick, and Adam Tedesco, among others. I stumbled on an old paperback copy of Valley of the Dolls over the summer. I copied ten random pages, then cut out pill-shaped chunks from the middle. I then switched around the cut pieces, and typed up rough, abstracts drafts of ten poems. I intend to make each successive draft looser and less connected to the original gibberish, but of course the results make more sense than you would think. This seems to be a good project to jump into when I can't think straight, or I'm too tired to write a "real" poem. Not thinking straight is absolutely required for this kind of word play. 

Basically, I am cutting myself some slack over the holidays, concentrating on relaxing (!) and enjoying the season. I'm also planning a trip to Florida in mid-February, via Amtrak, a less stressful mode of travel for both myself and my Roommate. I'm letting life lead for the time being. The poems wait, will wait, have waited, will be waiting. And will demand to be written when they will, always.

Saturday, December 6, 2014

**The Stuff That Poems Are Made Of... Supposedly**


    I just got back from an unexpected trip to Florida on Thursday. My father, who has been ailing for some time (both parents have actually) has been in the hospital for over two weeks now. His long-term prognosis isn't good, and it could be weeks, or longer, before he is even able to return home.

     I haven't seen him in person for a couple of years, since his last visit to Long Island. Finances don't allow me to travel that far very frequently, and until recently I have counted on their visits to New York for my chance to see them. Probably they won't be coming back to New York anytime soon. I'm not sure when I'll be able to go back to Florida, either.

      I won't go into detail here, but I am relieved that I have been completely free of the urge to write about all this in poetic form. I'm guessing it'll all be fodder for the poetry furnace later on, if I continue to write. Not in the mood for any of that. I am inspired to get to projects that I've been putting off for decades, doing what needs doing now, or crossing it off my list, the never-ending list of 'things I'd like to do some day.' THERE IS NO SOME DAY!! I have to be reminded of this from time to time, and usually in the worst ways.

     This is one of those worst way times. Here's a picture of what I've been working on today:


For twenty years, I've been planning to use my great-grandmother's doilies to decorate a set of blue sheets and make a duvet cover. I have been trying to figure out for twenty years how to attach the doilies to the sheet. Sewing seemed too complex. The doilies are fragile, old cotton thread, and some are even ripped in small places. Suddenly I remembered a fabric glue from Youtube that might work. I did a little research and settled on another product, Mod Podge for Fabric. It's working so far.

     It's nonverbal, it's creative, and it's long overdue. As Maureen O'Hara says in, "The Quiet Man," I want to have my things about me. I want to do more in my home with what I have. I don't want to waste any more time. I want to pretend that everything's OK.